( He doesn't get it, and there's only so much intel he can send Jacob to gather and so it remains a mystery. Instead he's far too invested in playing with the fabric at Zhou Zishu's belt, slipping his fingers inside where it's warm. That is, until the next comment, and he has to pause to frown. )
Don't worry, Ah-Xu. I'll do all the politics this time.
( Sometimes he wonders just what would have happened if he'd chosen to stay with Qin Huaizhang and Four Seasons. Would they have both fallen into the same traps? Maybe. Maybe not. He might have been too soft to save Zhou Zishu from himself even then. It still keeps him up at night, the what ifs. )
You don't have to do anything you don't want. I won't let anyone make you.
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( He doesn't get it, and there's only so much intel he can send Jacob to gather and so it remains a mystery. Instead he's far too invested in playing with the fabric at Zhou Zishu's belt, slipping his fingers inside where it's warm. That is, until the next comment, and he has to pause to frown. )
Don't worry, Ah-Xu. I'll do all the politics this time.
( Sometimes he wonders just what would have happened if he'd chosen to stay with Qin Huaizhang and Four Seasons. Would they have both fallen into the same traps? Maybe. Maybe not. He might have been too soft to save Zhou Zishu from himself even then. It still keeps him up at night, the what ifs. )
You don't have to do anything you don't want. I won't let anyone make you.